Good morning, big guy!
Wishing you a happy birthday!
My day always starts 7 hours before you, this morning I saw part of a parody of a real estate family from Paris on Netflix. I often had a tear in my eye because memories came back to me. I often think back on that time, but I can’t change the way it is now.
Back then, I wanted to give you, Jenny & Stefan the good feeling that had accompanied my life. Paris, city of love and the beautiful life in France. As soon as I was allowed to go to France earlier, I did so; before that I was constantly in Prague. Both cities have something magical about cities. Old walls, romantic alleys and other highlights, and of course restaurants and parks.
There was a tear in my eyes because it hurts me to look at peaceful families, large families where everyone stands by each other. We had something like this when my grandfather was alive. We met every weekend in Moritzburg – I showed you the house once – the big house by the lake, near the Waldschänke. I was here every weekend, here I met Silvio, who was always like a brother to me, here I met my other cousins, friends like Uwe (the boss at Seeblick) and we did all the nonsense that boys do… – we often looked like pigs because we played in the mud or in the forest, built houses in trees, had fun with the Russians… and there were big family celebrations for every birthday.
Heinrich, my grandfather, was a heavy smoker and loved cigars and his pipe. Once, when the President of Cuba was visiting the former GDR, he sat with him on the route and talked to him with his hands and feet. Fidel Castro – he simply disappeared from his business lunch and went to the common people. Later it was Putin who pitched there. Back then, the Russians had the pond for fishing & Putin was the head of the secret service in the Russian occupied zone (GDR), he spent his time in Dresden and often fishing in Moritzburg. Silvio had also met him when he went to school. Silvio had to go through the forest past the „Russian Island“, where he often turned off. Putin was the boss and asked him to show him his school books, Putin learned from them and also learned German.
When my grandfather died, the extended family also died. The four brothers often fell out. Everyone wanted to pursue a career, which in the GDR era was often only possible with the help of the party or by beating one’s head against a wall. The eldest was a lieutenant colonel in the army…, the second was a chief forester in the district office, then my father came as an engineer and, 10 years later, Silvio’s father as a car plumber. The lieutenant colonel stayed away at first because of his army career, secrecy, etc. & he wanted to become a general. The forester died early, he had also bled to death internally and the doctors discovered it too late. My father also wanted to travel, which at the time only worked with a clean slate; contact with his little brother wasn’t very helpful, but he didn’t let that stop him. The little brother once ran away to the West, came back and was in political prison… so he wasn’t loyal to the line and my father had a planned trip to Paris canceled at short notice. The party just said: „You have a brother“… so he could choose which of the 3 brothers they meant. Yes, that’s how it was back then.
Through the close contact with Silvio, he became a kind of brother and his parents like second parents to me. I used to argue more with my uncle than with my father. I was almost always there on vacation.
Before the former GDR collapsed, my aunt stayed in western Germany on an extraordinary visit and left Silvio and his father alone at home. They then applied to leave the country to live with my aunt. I also submitted an application and when I was about to hand it in, I picked up the call-up order. That’s why I didn’t submit the application, otherwise I would have gone straight to prison. I spent 543 days (1.5 years) in the army… Shortly after my time in the army, Silvio and my uncle were given the opportunity to leave the country. When I called Moritzburg, the “manager” of the family property answered… – unfortunately my uncle and Silvio did not turn to the family, but to another person who had taken over the house and huge land. We as a family had lost it forever. All memories and private things were basically stolen.
I once read somewhere that you can get cancer and illnesses more from frustration and bad experiences. My mother lived to be just over 60 before cancer ended her life. She could never really enjoy it. I didn’t want to wait that long to enjoy life. So I took advantage of every opportunity to travel, meet people and do what I enjoy. You are a big part of my life’s journey through time. I had to make decisions that hurt me personally. I separated from your mother because I didn’t want you to start lying and stealing for her, I wanted you to grow up happily with your biological parents, in a real family. The patchwork family construct with Kob and Fa didn’t work because their own interests came first and you and Jenny didn’t fit into Kob’s plan, so I ended it. Kob never wanted to live in a family with two children who weren’t hers, so she tried everything behind my back to get her to „get away“ and for me to look after her interests. I know that you and Jenny had a lot of nice moments during that time, I was also hoping that it would work out. But Thais often think differently than they show. This was true for your mother, as well as for Kob. Not least because of this, I had not considered further relationships with citizens of Thailand and perhaps had passed up great opportunities. After breaking up with Kob, I registered on various networks where Eva found me and made me happy in a different way. When I met her in real life some time later, the angel Cupid hit me with the arrow and I experienced true love for the first time. Even though Eva was very direct about some things and didn’t endear herself to everyone, her feeling was right. At the Chinese wedding reception in Macau, I told Eva and her family that my birth mother probably sent me an angel to put my life on the right track – because somehow it is.
That’s why I’ve now taken the long journey to live with her and her family. Hardly anyone takes such a path voluntarily. But back home in Germany I lost everything that was dear to me. My friends and family. Silvio showed his true self at the time when I needed him. With his lies he destroyed a large part of my life, which was once dear to me. Yes, he can talk a lot and often gets off track. This is how he stole his wealth. I always tried to get to the bottom of the truth, but that didn’t always help. This is not to say that lying and cheating will help you get ahead in life – this is just a false appearance.
I recently asked you if you are already making money on the Internet. This is at least one way to make money wherever you are, as it works wherever you can access the internet. Macau is therefore a very good place to start. On the other hand, if I saw my friend Jörg in Cuba, I would go crazy. Well, he tries to do the right thing for himself in other ways.
If you ever want help and support with making money on the internet, ask me. Affiliate marketing is the second oldest industry in the world and can be carried out anywhere over the Internet. If I had continued to pursue it when I started in Thailand, I would no longer have any worries, at least financially. Unfortunately I went the wrong way because I was thinking too much about “my family” (I mean, working with Silvio) & later with my “best friend” (Alex) – the two egoists hit me deeply…as did the Taiwanese…
I have to concentrate more on my own things, I’m far too distracted. But it will be okay. I’ll stay in Macau and only come to Europe to visit, that’s the plan. I have a small room here at Eva’s, my study, which I make up. Eva and her family take great care of me. When you give something, a lot comes back, I was already excited about this with Eva, perhaps it’s also called love…
I remember very well the time when I moved into the house, for example. There was only one person who helped selflessly – that was you! I think you were very happy during your time with me, but later you were torn because Leipzig wanted to have you with them, but you also liked being with me. Yes, I felt that way too. I only wanted the best for you – if you had told me that, I would have done everything in the world to achieve it.
When you moved back in with me, your parents promised that they would never interfere in your life again… But they didn’t keep it. I looked at you, saw it in your achievements and felt how torn you were, that’s why I decided it the way it came. It cost me a lot of nerves and money and, even now, long afterwards, it causes me pangs of conscience every day. Eva is now my number one in life, but you are not far away either. I endured endless reprisals, flew into the unknown with over 70 kg of luggage, voluntarily went into solitary confinement in quarantine twice, and spent the longest time in Hong Kong just to get to Eva. Now I will do everything I can to be happy here again.
I gave you “James” as a gift after you were born because I believed that you would become something special. Yes, I always said, become a pilot… and I want to sit in the back when you have the control stick in your hand in the front. Maybe you’ll become the internet guru who changes the world… (like my mentor… who showed me how to do it) who makes 7 figures a month…
Big boy, I wish you all the best on your birthday and every day too!
Please send me a smile if you’re feeling well.
Happy Birthday!
PS: Greetings to your sister too!
